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The Jaclyn Hill Palette - First Impression and Swatches.

I was lucky enough to get onto Beauty Bay and get my hands on a Jaclyn Hill Morphe palette before they sold out. The process was surprisingly easy and you can't imagine my excitement when it arrived at my door the next morning (I didn't even pay for next day delivery, great job Beauty Bay!)
On the first impression - I am not in love with the packaging, the silver and white looks pretty sleek when it arrived, however, with a bit of use I'm sure it will be looking rather grubby. The cardboard makes it feels cheap and is difficult to clean - however it cost £37 and there are 36 shades, so I think I could forgive that, as it's pretty great value for money. Also, I feel they missed a mirror opportunity in the lid. I do like that inside the palette has a message from Jaclyn which says "this palette is dedicated to all my loving subscribers" it's a nice reminder of who Jaclyn Hill is, and reflects her gratitude - but it didn't necessarily have to be written on in the inside of the lid - a mirror would have been handier. Also from watching Jaclyn videos, I know the shades have names, but I cannot see them written on the packaging at all, again it's not essential, but would be nice (and would come in handy writing this post!) - apparently other palettes came with a shade name insert, mine didn't. The palette is however very slim and light which although it's large makes it pretty easy to travel with. 
Now onto the eyeshadows. It consists of a whopping 36 shades, 17 of which are completely matte, 19 are shimmer, 2 of the 19 have slightly more subtle shimmer, the other 17 are pretty full on glitzy.

The palette mainly consists of warm toned shades. There are a lot of the essential warm neutrals are there, plus some pinks,  blues, purples and greens,  if you fancy being more adventurous with colour. Personally, I don't think there is a shade in this palette I won't get my use out of, however, I love experimenting with colourful eye make up, and also can appreciate a brown eyeshadow.
There are so many colour choices in the palette, I'm considering have a palette clear out, as this got pretty much every colour I need in it (besides a bright pink of course). The colour range means you can create a look for any occasion - whether it's a night out, a casual day look, or even a terrifying Halloween make up.
On swatching a did feel some of the shades were quite similar but then can you ever really have too many neutral eyeshadows? (I think not)
I'm sure you can tell by my swatches - all of the shadows are pretty damn pigmented and have a great colour pay off. I'm yet to try out any looks with the palette yet (but I will be filming a video for Sunday of it in use, subscribe to my Youtube Channel here so you don't miss it.) however, from swatching I can tell the eyeshadows have a buttery blendable consistency to them. 
Shade names in top swatch picture from left to right: Pool Party, Royalty, Obsessed, Creamsicle, Enlight.
Shade names from lower swatch image above from left to right: Jada, Twerk, S.B.N, Butter, Beam.
Shade names of swatches above from left to right: Diva, Hussle, Hillster,  Pooter, Silk Creme.
Shade names of swatches above from left to right: Enchanted, Meeks, Roxanne, Pukey, M.F.E.O.
Shade names of swatches above from left to right: Central Park, 24/7, Jacz, Hunts, Faint

Shade names of swatches in top image from left to right: Soda Pop, Chip, Buns, Firework, Sissy.
Shade names in the bottom image from left to right: Abyss, Mocha, Cranapple, Queen, Little Lady.


What do you think of the these colours? I can't wait to try it out!

Little Things to do Each Day...

I'm writing the post partly to benefit my readers, and partly to remind myself.

There are certain things I have recently been trying to do every day, in order to become a little more mindful, to keep learning, and feel positive.

So, here are 12 little things I'm trying to incorporate into my everyday routine...
  1. A consistent skincare routine - Whether I'm intending to stay in my pjs all day or not, I need to sure my skin is being looked after. 
  2. Going outside - Even if only for a second, getting a bit of fresh air makes all the difference.
  3. Reading - a book, magazine, blog post or an article, whatever I choose doesn't matter, as long as I'm reading.
  4. HavING at least an hour with my phone an aeroplane mode - sometimes we just need to step away from technology and stop scrolling.
  5. Meditating - It only takes 10 minutes and makes a huge difference.
  6. Exercising  - Of some form at least, no matter how big or small, I need to make sure my body is moving
  7. Clearing any phone notifications and emails - Looking at my phone is a lot more pleasant without the obnoxious red numbers everywhere
  8. Drinking plenty of water - Hydrating is important.
  9. Complimenting somebody - It's nice to be nice.
  10. Writing in my diary - so I can read and cringe in the years to come.
  11. Eating my five a day - I mean, actually, do it. Keep track of the fruit and veg I have and everything.
  12. Writing 3 things in my gratitude journal - because it's important to be grateful.

Full Outfit Posts on this look coming soon!




Wish me luck achieving all of these little things! x

Thoughts on Fate.

Today, I want to discuss fate, self-worth and second chances, as they are all things which have been playing on my mind, and to me, seem quite entangled in one another, when it comes to romantic relationships. Being a sucker for a rom-com, it’s no surprise, that despite how incredibly single I am, romance, is something which I often think about. 


I am a big believer in fate, and soul mates, I think that when you see two people together, and the fit is right, the world feels different around them, they move differently and in a way that the world follows their pace. I think you can feel it in the air when you’re around two soulmates, and similarly, if you’re a couple who don’t belong together, you feel that too - which is why sometimes, you have a bad feeling about a friends new boyfriend, even if on paper, he’s great. They just don’t always fit right. 


(not my picture, found on Atticus Poetry Instagram, I just love the image)

Something that plays into believing in fate, is unintentionally searching for fate. Convincing yourself that coincidence is fate, although we all know there is no romance behind drunkenly kissing a ‘lad’ in a club. 

And then there is this myth. ‘I always go back to him, so it must be fate’. For a long time, I believed this, there are two guys in particular, who never liked me enough to actually be with me. But if they called, I would answer. I would go running to them, time and time again, and I always thought, fate keeps bringing us together when realistically it was drunken texts, loneliness and not a lot else. 

And then there are the opinions of friends, which sometimes, not always, will unintentionally, kind-heartedly back up the bullshit, and make you think that being dropped, and long as you’re picked back up is okay. It's not that they think that is okay, it's simply they are seeing what you see and looking on the bright side, maybe they don't necessarily want to be the bearer of somebody else off-handed rejection.

One of the two guys I mentioned previously, managed to, without trying, convince, myself and my friend, that I would end up with him. Why? Because he kept showing back up, on nights out. We’d talk on and off, for two years. Even his friend said to me “You’ve been talking for two years, you’re obviously going to end up together”… He’d been stringing me along for two years. Rejecting me, time and time again, and then kissing me while intoxicated, and telling me he wants to be with me. Did I mention in these two years, he did not once spend time with me soberly? 

Eventually, he did. Recently actually. I drunkenly text him, because I felt completely gutted that my friend was meeting up with his friend on a night out, I was jealous, and haven't spoken to him in months, I felt they had stolen our fate. 

The next day he asked to see me. Sober. He was a changed man, and that fate, we’d all been talking about was taking shape. 

He kissed me, and my gut told me ‘I’m going to regret this tomorrow’ and I urgently pushed that thought to the back of my mind, because I wanted to enjoy my day with him, despite searching for my fate, I still didn't know when we’d get another.
 He played the guitar, and I thought, I could fall madly in love with this boy. He promised to see me again soon and explained that is also rubbish at texting.


He was a changed man... 


And, he has either evaporated or lied to me. 




My friend told me what she believed, "you’ll hear from him, you two always go back to each other"

And that is what it took for me to understand, that if it’s fate, there is no need to go back to people. They would want to with you in the first place. They would have you. He would be my boyfriend right now, he would have been my boyfriend for nearly two years by now. 


If you have read “Bloom” by Estée Lalonde, you might be familiar with Estée’s and Aslans, love story. To shorten it, they met in an online chat room. He lived in the UK, she lived in Canada. He sent her postcards every day. Their first date was a road trip around America, she then moved halfway across to the world, to a country she’d never visited, to be with him.




If she can get a postcard each day, from a guy who lives in another country, I should be able to get so much from somebody in my own city, if it’s fate. However, I can’t even get a text back. 

So, it’s time to remember, what fate really entails, if somebody won’t move across the earth for me, they are not my soulmate, they are just another person, and one who doesn' want me. If it takes two and a half years for someone to see me soberly, it will take longer than my lifetime, for them to want me to be their girlfriend. There is nothing romantic in that.

Someone wanting to see you without having 5 double vodka lemonades beforehand should never feel groundbreaking.

Sorry if this were too personal.
My mind has been going at its own speed, trying to figure this out, so I wanted to note it down, to make sense of it. And I thought it deserves a place on my blog, just in case it reminded a reader of their self-worth. 

Recent Poetry.



There will come a moment
when waves of me
will come
Crashing into you
And I will abandon you
in the
Storm

as I sit in still
appreciate the calm
and breathe in
your Absence.


~~~


We have to be
either something
or nothing

I may go insane
if we stubbornly remain
barely
inbetween
clinging onto
something of nothing.


~~~~


That place you held
in my heart
has relocated to the
depth of my chest
And the gasp of each painful breath
Through the darkness of words unsaid
They ache and echo
Desperately
holding onto letting go


~~~~

My heart hurts
because you, don't want it.
You fail to show a single sign of respect for it.
I'm living with constant regret of this
For, I know better.
But when I get an opportunity to
gaze until your encapsulating eyes
Poppet, I smile as I eat up, each and every
lie.

~~~~

Maybe undeserved escape from you
Or the numbing feeling
will stop me feeling
inadequate
You have a habit of, encouraging to me to feel
far from enough
So, here's my tough route
to feel self- love.


Myself, my style, my branding.

Recently, I've been a little quiet in the blog world - why?


I didn't post for a while, I was ~busy~ and then somewhere along the lines, I found myself questioning, who the hell I am.

I felt like I lost myself a bit, I felt obliged to write about lipsticks, but also CBA to write about lipsticks, because that doesn't give me the same relief typing out something far too personal about my non-existent love life, that I'll probably never have the balls to publish and if I do I'll both hope that the boy never reads it, and pray he does, all at the same time. I guess sometimes lipstick feels more important than others. My world doesn't always revolve around lipstick. Sometimes I want to lose reality in focus on material things. Sometimes I couldn't care less about material things and be the more raw version of myself. I couldn't figure out which version of myself felt 'right' to write about - what part of myself did I want to share with the internet?


It became easier to post nothing, because what I felt like writing about I might regreting giving a home on the internet, and beauty simply wasn't quite floating my boat all of the time.

So my space stayed quiet while I considered who I am, who I want to be, and who I admire.

I always wanted to continue blogging, I just wanted to grow with it, and create content which sat right with me. I guess the only way to figure out how to grow was to hit the pause button for a while and reflect.

I've changed and evolved so much over the years I've had my little blog, and I think it's time this acknowledged in my content.  I am also a different person day to day, and that is something I think needs to reflect in writing, and my posts. I am not going to write something which yet right yesterday if it doesn't today.

I also felt lost beyond this. Style-wise, I realised not so sure of myself anymore, and I feel a new haircut coming on, and a couple of expensive shopping trips - maybe it's time I finally get the capsule wardrobe I've been lusting after.

I feel the need for a rebrand, both personally and online here, I'm going to be trying out different things, and looking for a fit. I'm not going to changing up layout or anything, but I am going to take some time to rediscover myself, I may even go wild, and change up my Instagram a little (crazy, I know).

Am I who I want to be? and how do I become that person?

These questions keep swirling around in my head, and they're making me want to push myself more creativity. Step outside some comfort zones.


The spaces we create on the internet, are a little odd. They are a hyperreality, they tell stories, as we want, and we can manipulate them, to reflect us in any light we choose. Of course more than likely, we want to reflect, a true yet polished version of ourselves. But when you're questioning who you are, and the purpose of your creations, it hard to make it any substantial. I feel both very aware and unaware of who I am, I'm unsure how to reflect the version of myself I want to show because she is trapped in my own head and in the admiration of others. We are surrounded by images and they imprint on our thought on ourselves. I feel more comfortable with myself than ever, but how do I show that version of myself. I feel myself on the outside, on the inside and on the internet are all different people.

This post probably didn't make all that much sense, as it is a rambling stream of consciousness.  Yet for the sake of taking time to discover what I want to post,  I'll hold my breath and hit the publish button.


A few days have passed since I furiously sat at my desk and typed out this somewhat vague, confusing stream of consciousness, and with a bit of planning and blog schedule back in place, I am beginning to feel like myself again, I think there may be a bit of trial and error as I figure where I fit in the blogging world, but that's okay.

There is also a full post on this outfit coming soon!

Dress: H&M
Jacket: Whistles (similar)
Shoes: Office (similar)
Photography: Madeliine Grace Blogs











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Rest of the Year Goals

2017 is coming to a close, I cannot get my head around that it's October already, but here it is.

Looking back to the start of the year, I was so excited for all of the things I would achieve during 2017,  and although I have taken steps forwards, I haven't taken nearly as many as I would like. However, there is still a couple of months until the end of the year, and as much as I would like December to hurry up (I mean, hello Christmas), I'm glad to have a bit of time to focus on some goals...  so here they are:


- Get a New Job - I've been wanting to start a new job for the longest time. I've become too comfortable where I work, although it has never been a career plan. I've been there far longer than I expected or wanted. So it's time to start sending out tonnes of CV and applications in hope that I'll find a job which makes me love Mondays (I feel like I may have accidentally stolen the reed.co.uk tagline, oops.)

- Pass my Driving Test - I feel as though I have been learning to drive for the longest time - it's taking far longer than I expected, but I am finally doing it at 25 years old, and before the end of the year I'd really love to pass my driving test, it will be one more thing ticked off of my 'be an adult' to do list.

- Have More Grit - I am currently reading the book Grit by Angela Duckworth. There are aspects of it I am really enjoying and some of it is some painfully obvious I feel stupid I've not thought of it sooner. Grit is basically working where and whenever with passion until it pays off. I need more grit with this blog, and my youtube channel, fewer evenings with Gilmore girls and lunch breaks with phone time, I need to put my time and passion back into blogging.

- Post to a Schedule - Similarly, I want to get back into a blogging and youtube schedule. If I have certain days which I post this blog won't get neglected if I get 'busy', I just need to be organised and dedicated. After a bit of planning,  I have decided I will be posting on this blog every Monday, Wednesday and Friday at 6pm, and posting a new video on my Youtube Channel every Sunday at 6pm, so keep you're eye peeled.

- Keep a Gratitude Journal - I love the idea of having a gratitude journal, so I'm going to start one up. Every night I'm going to write three things I'm grateful for, which I hope will bring more joy into my life.

- Go to Life Drawing Classes - One of the goals I've set myself at the start of the year which I haven't got around to achieving yet is going to life drawing classes, I need to hurry up and just do it.

- Be more Health Conscious - You know, drink more water, figure out what exercise I actually enjoy, eat more veg, eat less chocolate.

- Build Relationships with Brands - I, once again am trying to take the blogging thing more seriously, so  I really would love to start working with some brands. If you know of any who you think will interest me, who work with small (but bloody great) bloggers, please let me know!

- Read More - I neglected reading again for a while, and my to read list is forever growing, it's time to get some books out!

- Have a Good Time, Stay Positive -  I tend to feel quite positive towards the end of the year anyway, as there is the build-up of Halloween, birthday, Christmas and New Years excitement. This year I've also got a little trip planned and it's my brothers 30th birthday too. But it's no secret we all have down days, and I've been through periods of time where my mental health hasn't been in the greatest state. I just want to make sure I'm making sure I focus on the good rather than the bad, stay positive and make the most out of everything.


Have you set yourself any goals for the remainder of 2017?
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6 Loves: Podcasts.


It seems everyone is jumping on the Podcast creator bandwagon recently, and I, for one, am not complaining - there's a podcast for every mood. You cannot have too much of a good thing I like to
believe.

Today I wanted to update my podcast love list as there are a lot I have been enjoying listening to recently, and my last podcast based post was back last June (here), so it's probably about time.


So here are some of my current favourites:

Get it off your Breast with Emma Gannon and Lliana Bird - This is one I've only recently begun listening to and fell in love with straight away. Being a big fan of Emma's CTRL ALT DELETE, I knew it was going to be another great podcast - Emma is a natural when it comes to podcasting and I love that she has a co-host on this podcast.

Get it off your breast is simply woman discussing anything they want to get off their chest. They have a different guest each week so you hear the thoughts of many women and it's just one big very open honest discussion.



The Heart of it by Estée Lalonde - When Estée originally said she wanted to do a podcast, I was excited, and after much anticipation, when I finally heard the pilot of The Heart of It (which was on protests) I've got to be honest, this was not what I expected. I expect something a lot more lighthearted - this, however, became the podcast I didn't know I needed.

In The Heart of It, Esteée discusses matters which are important to her, and she brings in her own experience, alongside interviewing somebody who she thinks is valuable to the subject. This is a lot more serious than I expect, and also, unexpectedly, that's what I like about it.

This podcast is also formatted unlike any I've listened to, Estee switches between the interview to bringing in her own thoughts and experiences on the subject outside of the interview setting.



The Debrief with Tessa Coates and Stevie Martin  - I keep going on about The Debrief Podcast,  so I'll keep this short and sweet because it's probably getting boring and repetitive, this podcast on adulting is just hilarious, helpful and relatable.



Crash on my Couch by Will Darbyshire and Arden Rose - In this Podcast Will and Arden basically, discuss funny articles. There are different segments throughout the podcast which I love, it breaks the podcast up, and one episode can talk about conspiracy theories, cute animals, answer readers questions, Japanese culture and more. Until I listened to this podcast, I did not realise how much I needed to listen to an in-depth conversation about a treasure hunt but trust me, it's gold.

It's just a fun podcast. I also love hearing Will and Arden interact with each other, as unlike the podcast with two hosts that I've mentioned, they're in a relationship and (weirdly) I like hearing how couples interact, it makes it more enduring.



At Home With... by Lily Pebbles and Anna Newton - Season 1 of this podcast has recently ended, but if you haven't listened already, there an entire season you can catch up on. In this podcast, Lily Pebbles and Anna Newton (two of my internet favourites) go to the homes business women they admire and interview them. I find this podcast very inspiring and personal to each guest. It feels like you really get to know the guest as Lily and Anna visit their homes - I'd recommend listening on the A Cast app because they usually include pictures too!



Dear Sugars by Cheryl Strayed and Steve Almond - This podcast was born from an advice column and you can tell, Cheryl and Steve both very honestly answer personal letters from listeners, and share their own experiences.

They are both very wise, honest and thoughtful. They cover a range of subjects from relationship-based problems to career struggles. You can tell Steve and Cheryl both speak genuinely from experience and are still willing to hear different opinions.


Have you heard any of these? I'd love to hear what you think! Also if you if have anymore recommendations, my ears are always open!

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Pink Cord and Ice Cream for Breakfast.


A few weeks back I wrote this article for Amor Magazine, about corduroy,  where I mention my pink cord jacket. As my obsession with this jacket lives on (along with my sisters, she's borrowing it right now) I thought it deserved its own OOTD post.

Here you can see, I keep things simple with the styling, and the hair as messy as ever. 

Wearing entirely black and pink, this outfit is oh so casual, with a feminine hint. 


Alongside the pink cord jacket, I've opted for your standard black pair of jeans, and a plain black tee, with these adorable blush suede mules (which get 10 points for comfiness) and the smallest yet cutest bag from Whistles.

My Ace and Tate specs (which, yes are prescription), Olivia Burton watch, and pink lipstick (MACs Pink Nouveau) add the finishing touches.




As you can see, I'm flouncing around my back garden (who do I think I am?!) reading Ice Cream for Breakfast by Laura Jane Williams, which I would strongly recommend. It is a book all about embracing your inner child, and the things you can learn from children.  The writing style is very easy to read and relatable, and it's one of those books, which I still think about despite having finished reading it a while ago, I've taken so much from it, including a desire to eat ice cream for breakfast

Bag (similar)
Lipstick MAC Pink Nouveau
Watch (similar)
Phone Case (20% off  on the Coconut Lane website with the code chloeharriets20!!!)


If you're interested in the other pink items in my wardrobe, I recently posted a sneak preview of my favourite pieces in the shade on my youtube channel, which you can check out below...


What do you think? Do you share my love from Pink Corduroy and Ice Cream for Breakfast?


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6 Loves: Youtube Channels.

One of my favourite things to do on a rainy Sunday afternoon, besides eating a massive (meatless) roast dinner, is to get comfy and binge watching my favourite Youtube Channel.

As it's nice to throw a little positivity and appreciation into the internet world I thought I'd share some of my current favourite channels with you, hopefully, you'll discover a channel you love too, or we might already share some mutral loves here.


Lily Pebbles - I'd say Lily is my all time favourite Youtuber (I met her once, and she is also lovely). She is very down to earth and real in her videos, her personality is very likeable and she doesn't try to be perfect, which I like. Her videos are both casual and creative. She covers beauty, fashion, tech, and daily vlogging.


The Michalaks - If you want something beautiful to watch, the Michalak is the place to look. The family posts the most incredible weekly films of their life. The Michalak family consist of Stef (Dad), Hannah (Mum), Grayson (Son, 3year old), and they have recently just had the second child, a little boy. Watching their birthing video earlier today took my breath away. They are just very good people, creating content which is far beyond anything else I've seen on youtube.


Arden Rose - Arden posts a mixture of lifestyle, fashion and beauty videos. Her extroverted personality (and probably her experience in acting) shines through on camera as her videos offer plenty of her enduring personality. The quality of her videos are great, and they tend to include the sweetest little illustrations. She also has a great taste in fashion and I wish I were as cool and confident as she is.


MoreZoella - I couldn't not include Zoe's vlog channel. I get the same feeling watching Zoe's vlogs, as I do watching Gilmore Girls, they're just cosy and nice. They're usually pretty long, but they're always full of joy. Zoe is so likeable and normal despite all of her success, and her life is just a great one to watch.


JaynieShannonx - Jaynie my friend IRL makes a mixture of beauty videos and vlogs. She's so herself in her videos and they make the perfect casual watch. I find it so interesting to watch somebody from my world on Youtube. Plus, she's bloody great at doing her makeup so her beautiful videos are great, and she is having a baby so I feel her channel may feature a lot of cuteness in the future.


Lucy Moon - Lucychannelnel is another one where there is a good mixture of creative and casual videos. Lucy's 168 vlogs are always beautiful and I feel the branding of Lucy chanel is on point - I could see one of Lucy videos and know it's hers. She is a very normal seeming girl, who I think is also quite wise (seem like a questionable thing to say, but I imagine she gives the best advice). Her videos are always aesthetically pleasing and interesting. She also writes some music and occassionaly posts singing/cover videos and her voice is stunning.


What are you favourite Youtube Channels?

Sorry I've included a lot of these a pretty big names, simply because they tend to be easier to come across, and these are the ones I've been enjoying recently. If you know of any small YoutubersI should check out, please let me know.

It was a struggle to narrow it down to 6 channels, maybe I'll do a part two in the future!



Urban Outfitters Home Wish List.


Personally one of my favourites places to shop for Homewares is Urban Outfitters, some of my favourite bit in my bedroom I picked up there, and everything I see in there seems to suit my interior style.

So when I recently found myself doing a bit of sad girl online shopping. You know, the kind where you add everything to your basket and then close the tab because you can't afford to spend £981 on accessories for your bedroom.So I decided to blog a little home wish list, so the day a spare £981 appears in my bank, I can refer back to this blog post - plus it might give you a little interior inspo.

Print: I love the simplicity to this print, and the combo of colours, I think it would be a great way to add a splash of colour to my space.


This Print - The blue sea in this print just makes me feel calm. Plus the blue and pink together would fit perfectly with my bedroom.


The Rug - I've been on the hunt for a new rug for my bedroom, something with a little more texture than the one I've got, and this would be perfect. I like the mixture of subtle colours and the high piled fabric. This rug would just add a whole new level of cosy to my room.


This Planter: I'm yet to have any hanging planter in my room, although I love a bit of greenery. I love the gold of this planter, the would be the perfect hanging planter.

This Letter Board: I mean, it's pink. I could put quotes on it. Why would I not want it?

This Mirror: A gold mirror, and jewellery stand with the phase of the moon on it... functional and right up my street.


This Moon light: I have an obsession with the moon, okay?


What do you think of these pieces? Which of all these lovely things shall I treat myself to?!

Under Rose Tainted Skies by Louise Gornall.


Overview
It took me just one evening and a lazy Sunday to read all 275 pages of Under Rose Tainted Skies by Louise Gornall and fall in love with the characters.

The book is based around teenager Norah who has Agoraphobia which pretty much leaves her housebound. Norah illness leaves her afraid of the world, desperate to stay safe, and controlled by OCD.

I love the writing style of this book. Norah's mental health illnesses become almost relatable and understand by poetically written descriptions. It also makes it very clear that, although Norah is still suffering, she is still very much an ordinary teenage girl, as a reader, I never felt her character was defined by her mental health problems.

Of course, there is a boy (isn't there always?) New neighbour Luke moves in next door and becomes curious about Norah. From the fate of her shooing away a bird, at the timing of him sneaking a look at her, leaves him confusing it for a flirt wave, and makes attempts to get to know her. He soon pieces together that she doesn't go to school like she told him, and tries desperately to understand her illness. I found Lukes character to be very charmingly ordinary. Together the characters seemed to fit.

The characters in this story, grow both individually and together as they try to understand each other, despite leading quite different lives. 

There is also a slight twist towards the end, which means Norah is pushed outside of her tiny comfort zone which she has created for herself. 


Some Quotes I liked...


See, anxiety doesn’t just stop. You can have nice moments, minutes where it shrinks, but it doesn’t leave. It lurks in the background like a shadow, like that important assignment you have to do but keep putting off or the dull ache that follows a three-day migraine. The best you can hope for is to contain it, make it as small as possible so it stops being intrusive. Am I coping? Yes, but it’s taking a monumental amount of effort to keep the dynamite inside my stomach from exploding."



Perfection is a feeling; you’ll know it if you’ve ever questioned the competency of your penmanship before writing on the first page of a new notebook.” 




“I just want to have proof that I can think straight, that I am more than the girl who believes that odd numbers will cause a catastrophe.”

Star Rating:
★★★★ out of ★★★★★

If you have given this a read, I'd love to hear your thoughts, I personally really enjoyed this book!



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Take a Break.




No, this is not an ad for KitKat (however if KitKat did want to sponsor, would be 100% game). You may have noticed recently my blog posts have been a little more sparse. Why? Because I gave myself a break, and much to my surprise the world did not end.


I was feeling uninspired and much to my surprise, my imagination seemed to be failing me - for a creative person who can't get out of her own head, I felt as though I'd lost myself when my mind became empty.

At first, I found myself feeling down, and napping a little too often (odd, but there may be a post on this coming soon). with developed to feeling sad, and having nothing to write about. My mind was blank, and my body felt tired - and in turn, I felt guilty, for not posting on my blog. Although my blog earns me no money, I still want it to success, and place that fills me with pride. How was I going to get anything out of it, when I felt unable to put anything into it?

Then I decided, to stop forcing it, mainly because there was nothing left to force. I stopped allowing blogging to be my main concern and started looking for my happiness, and following my need to rest.

I took naps, a lot of them. I started reading again. I worked at my job - where I began allowing myself to enjoy it, I laughed at podcasts, I crocheted and watched  Netflix. And my little space on the internet has not moved. It has just sat waiting for me.

I, however, feel like a new person. That motivation I was looking for has found me, and I'm excited to pick up where I left off, while somewhere near there, where the glass is slightly greener.

I've learnt the importance of listening to your body, and that ultimately, you'll become a better version of yourself if you allow yourself the time that you need to just be.

Both mentally and creatively I feel the break has flipped my attitude and allowed me to refuel. I am no longer running on empty and once again feel as though I can, and want to create content I am proud of, be productive, and feel content within myself.

Sometimes it's nice to see back while the world turn and something in the stillness of the spinning creates the spark you forgot you had.







The Outfit Details:
Playsuit (underneath shirt): ASOS (old, similar here)
Necklace: Warehouse (old, similar here)
Shoes: Next (old)
Hat: River Island (old, similar here)
Watch: Olivia Burton (similar here)
Earrings: Whistles (similar here)









I'd love to hear what you think of this outfit! I struggled with what to style the shirt dress with, but I think the simple black playsuit underneath worked, and the hat adds an effortless finishing touch!


I hope this post was a reminder to take the break you need! I can't wait to get back into the swing of blogging, if you don't already follow me on bloglovin' make sure you do to keep up to date.

Love,
Chloe x

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July Favourites.


Alas, I actually have a new video up on my Youtube Channel, and being a spontaneous favourites video, I, of course, missed out some thing which I really wanted to talk about so here are three more of my July Favourites:

The Debrief Podcast - I actually decided to film a favourites video with the main intention of speaking about this Podcast, I then typically forgot to speak about it. I love everything about this podcast, Tessa and Stevie are hilarious - I've had a fair amount of strange looks for laughing on public transport whilst listening to this. The topics are also relatable and interesting, and so are Tessa and Stevie, plus they give some pretty good advice too. Very much feels like you have some of your pals chatting in your ear, having a great time whilst you all try to get your lives together. Would strongly recommend.


Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur - I have found myself reaching for Milk and Honey a lot this month when looking for a quick for words or reassurance or understanding. I'm sure you've all read (or at least heard of) Milk and Honey so I won't go on about it too much. But this collecction of poetry is just something special and very real.


Whistles Coin Purse - I have swapped in my ordinary purse, for a little coin purse. I mainly bought it so I'd have something to fit in the little handbag which I talk about in my monthly favourites video (below), and I have converted to using it all the time. It means I carry less crap in my purse - I had some many cards which never used left the slot in my purse, now they stay at home (or in the bin where they belong). It will fit in any bag, and I like the sleek design. I'm definitely enjoying have simplified things in the purse department.


And as you can see from the tease of a photograph, these are not my only favourites from the month, I wanted to keep this post short and sweet but there are many more lovely things included in this video, enjoy x


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Crazy, Curious and Drunk.



I am going to attempt to type out some thoughts which I can't make the head of tail of - so if this post makes no sense to you, you are not the only one. And if it does, I'm impressed, and hope I manage to make sense of these thoughts too.

I often get branded the crazy girl. I guess I get lost in my own head a lot, and I'm not going to lie - sometimes maybe I come across crazy. Maybe I get drunk (not in an alcoholic drinking myself on the street corner way, in vodka shots on a night out with friends kind of way) and text a little too much, or I'm too open about my feelings too early on - and that's what makes someone crazy, right?

Obsession.

But we obsess over loads of things, let's be honest. I obsess over anything from Harry Styles to Harry Potter. But nobody is ever like fuck that girl is crazy, she really likes Harry Styles - they might politely disagree and say his hair is stupid (which it's not, by the way), but that disagreement usually comes as an insult to what I'm obsessing over, rather than my obsession. There are many things I obsess over - but they don't make me crazy, they make me human. Everyone has their things.

However, when we seem to really like a person, the person in question often thinks we're crazy for liking them. Which, personally I think is utterly bizarre. It may be a little irritating when somebody wants to speak to you - but take the compliment, baby.


But I'm not crazy for reading Harry Potter over and over again, I am however bloody bonkers for texting a boy that I fancy too much. I just don't understand this notion.

When we are attracted to a person, we do obsess over them, it weird, I agree, but humans are weird, and it's human nature to think a little too fondly of somebody who you really wanna kiss. It's normal to see them in a somewhat unnatural light because your idea of them is tainted by your attraction toward them.

What I wonder, is why does that make me less attractive? Why does somebody like me less because they're aware I like them? I'm sure to an extent, this is human nature too, but I just think it's a little fucked up. I don't want feeling curiousity about someone to leave me counting kissing on a text, or feeling like I should hold back. I've always felt curiosity is something I should follow - but what about when I'm curious about another person? Because it is socially unacceptable to try too hard. And, yes, I think it's always crystal clear when someone doesn't feel the same and it's time to put down the phone. However, different people bring different things to your life. So, sometimes, you might just be about figuring out where to place a person and your emotions towards them. That initial confusion, of course, leads us to curiosity.

I feel as though I am not the only one to look through my drunken night out text from the night before and really cringe, usually about how forward I've been. I probably then feel anxious about seeing that person until the next time I do see them, because I'm aware, there is a likelihood they think I'm crazy, and there is also a chance if, they are a really rubbish person, they've laughed about what I've said with their friends, and I am so aware that is not the person I want in my life. Yet it's always a worry because you never know with that situation before it's too late, and of course, if somebody wants to portray you as crazy, no matter who you are, it's not that difficult to do.

 But seriously, if someone drunkenly texts you, just clear the air the next day, because if you did just think, fuck they had too much to drink last night, oh well as they just wanted to chat or whatever - which I have always thought when I've received a drunken message, the text sender is probably feeling very anxious about how poorly you must think of them, for simply not holding back when they wanted to talk to you. And then, text sender is in a lose lose situation, because you're always concerned they think your crazy, and you're so anxious about it, it's playing on your mind so much that you're thinking fuck maybe I'm crazy, and you're too concerned with being 'crazy' to clear the air yourself - but as I said there is nothing crazy about being attracted to a person.


I think I misconception behind drunken messages is in the weight behind them. Just to confirm, no my drunk texts, do not mean I spend my evenings making a scrapbook of our future wedding or choosing names for our children - it simply means, in that vodka fueled moment, I would quite like attention, and preferably yours. It does not mean I have a shrine of you in my bedroom, or I've begun telling people you're my boyfriends, it just that maybe, I fancied a drunk snog, or possibly I feel like chatting shit to you whilst eating some cheesy chips. Also, that who drunken mind, sober heart saying, is indeed bullshit.

Another thing, which I think may factor into the crazy vibe, is funnily enough - that I'm female. Yes, that. I have received a drunken text from guys, and the next just have been like don't worry about it - however, I might drunken text someone, who has previously done this to me and have woken up with a fuck I'm crazy paranoia, which to confirm - I'm not. Why do I feel assured they're not crazy, but question myself? I've never got the impression that the men who have drunkenly text me have felt ashamed or embarrassed about their behaviour - yet, I show the same behaviour and it feels completely unacceptable the next morning. And it's a bloody two-way street when they've done it to me, yet I am red with embarrassment thinking about it and I'm the only one who is.

And now let's get to self-respect and desperation. I am going to keep this points short because although I want to touch on this, it is not something I feel a strong desire to shove down your throats. Just because someone may perceive me as crazy, that does not mean I am desperate or lack self-respect. What somebody else thinks of me, is a reflection on them, not of me. I do fully believe if someone doesn't make an effort to you, you sure as hell stop using your energy on them, because you should get out what you put in. However, in the early days of meeting someone, when you are just placing what you want from them, the lines are a little more blurred. Those lines also can blur more as you decide what you want from them, as a 25-year-old woman, I don't want a relationship with everyone one I fancy - however I think that's easily forgotten.  And again, when alcohol involved lines blur even more, and you don't text because you lack self-respect - you text because you wanna say something, and honesty is something I neither perceive as desperate or disrespectful of yourself.


 On a side note - I'm not sure the poem in the image completely relates, but I liked it nonetheless, it's from Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur.

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